It might seem odd, but it only really hit me today that Christmas is next week Monday, a scant 9 or so days away.
I know, I work retail, it should be obvious. But here's the thing:
This is the first year I haven't been subjected to customers out on the sales floor. I'm in the back, all day, everyday. And sure I see the masses of shipping coming in and then slowly fading from my back room the ebb and flow of inventory if you will but it's not as in your face as running around for eight hours a day fetching things for people. I've got a lot of
other things on my plate to worry about.
I did spend a couple Christmases as receiving manager at Giant Bookstore A, but they were constantly short of floor management at holiday and I would have a couple days a week or so that I would dress "nice" and play manager-on-duty or do head cashier-type duties for a few hours a day, and it's really hard to escape the fact that there are masses of people clamoring for your attention then.
Today, I saw the consumers out en masse just wandering about the mall like zombie hordes looking for some hot retail action, and it was insane like I hadn't seen yet this season.
Part of it, I think was the immense windstorm that cleared through here on Thursday night. It knocked out power in a lot of areas, including spots around my house and the work, but
not my actual home or work. A lot of workplaces in the area were closed, however, and quite a few schools were shut down, as well as some roads being blocked, and the 520 bridge was closed, which meant . . .
. . . even people whose work was open and operational were not going, since they had to take care of the kids, or the way there was blocked, or they just didn't want to deal with traffic.
On the other hand, since there wasn't any kind of actual emergency going on, and it wasn't raining for the first time in a while, and since tons of people still didn't have electricity at home, people were bored and needed something to do and somewhere else to be besides home.
Luckily for them, they could take advantage of this unexpected day off to get some Christmas shopping crossed off their list. Unluckily for them, some of the malls in the area were closed. Luckily,
our mall was open, so they could all flock there.
I couldn't even get coffee this morning because the line for the S'Bucks was out the door and down a ways, and it's not worth money
and freezing my patootie off to get my grinds before work. One or the other, really.
Anyway, masses. Of people. Everywhere. It took forever to get my hot sandwich on my lunch break. I couldn't get help for what seemed like forever at the bookstore because there were all these
people.
Madness.
Anyway. One more week or so until it's over.
. . .
This is the first year ever we haven't had a Christmas tree. It's the first year in
my life that there is no tree. Or decorations in the house.
Part of me is a bit sad at the dearth of hoopla in the household, and the lack of lights and sparkly things, but most of me is pleased with the calm, quiet, un-holidified cocoon away from consumerism that the apartment has become to signify to me.
When I am old, will I become one of those weirdos that doesn't participate in anything and every day is just like the last before, with no signifiers to mark the passing of time? I don't think so. I think I just need a breather right now.
. . .
It might be too, that not being bomarded by mass media has affected my "christmas spirit" as it were. I mean, part of the whole holiday thing is that it's something that
everybody's doing, and television/radio/etc. throw so much at you that the deeply reinforces that "HEY, THIS IS WHAT'S NORMAL SO YOU'D BETTER GET ON IT!" feeling, as subconcious as it may be.
We can think to ourselves, "Man, I just don't really feel like
doing Christmas this year" and you can say it to yourself, but you can't just
say that to other people. It's weird. It goes against our training, pushed deeper into us year after year.
People who think things like that are mocked. Remember
Skipping Christmas (either book or movie, your choice of horrors)? Those people didn't value the day of our Lord and Saviour's birth (or whatever) and were taught a valuable lesson You can't escape Christmas, motherfuckers!
Now don't get me wrong I don't hate Christmas. I love Christmas. Plus all the other assorted holiday goodness aorund this time of year. New Years? Yeah, I'm into that, for sure.
I also fully support everyone else's want to have a merry season of joy and all the tidings and such that go along with that. I'm not even gong to say, "Hey, celebrate your crap over there."
I'm cool with it.
I'm just not really into it this year.
That's cool, right?
I'm no grinch, I'm just lazy, and need to curl up in my den to hibernate this one out.